I made a promise to myself when I started this blog that I wanted it to be 2 things:
1. True to myself and followers
2. That my words would help at least one person.
I know I’m achieving the latter based on feedback and comments and that makes me so happy!
This brings me to the first. I have been very honest and open thus far and that brings me to today’s post. So here we go.
I have done a lot of work on my attitude and mentality over the years. This does not mean that I don’t have days where I backslide a little into old habits and thoughts. We are always a work in progress and always will be. That is why we are all here isn’t it? To learn and evolve.
This week, I talked negatively about someone else. Like really not nice at all. Immediately after, I felt-icky. And immediately began to do a few things.
- I started internally berating myself
- I started having anxiety that this person would find out
- I started asking myself how I could ‘fix’ this
I wallowed in that shit for a few hours. But here is where the knowledge that I am making mental progress(for lack of a better term or should I say evolving? let me know). I knocked that shit off.
Instead of being incredibly stressed out and mean, I asked myself why I felt the need to say those things? What in this other person that I was bitching about did I dislike about myself? Why did I feel like it was ok to spew this poisonous bullshit? And I sat with that for a bit. That is where the work really is guys…and this is how we know we are “evolving”.
We recognize when we are doing something that is not conducive to the person we want to be, or that’s against the attititude we choose to live by and we do something about it. I challenge you to follow this process yourself the next time you catch yourself in the act of unkindness. Ask the questions, what do I see in this person I dislike in myself? Why do I feel the need to be unkind in this moment . Let’s make the world a better place by changing our mindsets, trust me, positivity is contagious.
I am not going to tell you what the situation was or the details about myself that I came up with, some stuff has to stay personal to me. But…I did ask my Angels this morning how to move forward in this situation, and this is what they responded with.
Needless to say, I am choosing to forgive myself, and move on.
I hope this finds you well, and that you may find this information helpful in your own personal journey to mental evolution (I like that word!).