Avery Christian and I

Good morning to you all! 

I want to write today about an epiphany I had this morning while listening to my morning affirmation. 

I have so much to be grateful for in my life. It is INCREDIBLY abundant. 

I haven’t appreciated it as much as it deserves. The reason for that..I have been focusing on the emptiness. The other side of my life. The holes and gaps. 

When you are grieving (and yes, I will ALWAYS be grieving, it will never go away or be magically fixed) it is SO easy to get caught up looking to the left, or the past. This is how I visualize it anyway…and forgetting to look to the middle and what is right in front of you. 

This came to me today and was such an epiphany..I had the biggest emotional release I have had in AGES.

I have been focused for so long on the what ifs, the missing pieces in my life, without even realizing it. Feeling restricted in my happiness as though I didn’t deserve it. That somehow that happy feeling would be minimizing the missing pieces.

I’m here to tell you that it does not at all minimize this. We are allowed to be happy in life. We are allowed to appreciate all that we have here and now and yes there is so much if you just pay attention. 

My fifth grandchild was born this week. Without realizing it, I have been so caught up in my own fears and anxieties to my past trauma with Kayla’s pregnancy that I didn’t allow myself to feel the absolute amazement and pure joy this little boy brings with him. He is healthy. He is perfect. Kristina is healthy. She is perfect in my eyes. 

I choose to appreciate what is full and whole and allow myself that purity, that joy, that amazement that is LIFE! 

Because, if you don’t…you are not living. And that is not a life my friends. 

Take a moment today..look around and really appreciate and soak up all that you have because there is SO M\UCH there. I know that’s what I am doing. 



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